Realized

From our creative partner in Gurugram, Haryana just outside of Delhi in India

This poem is reproduced with the permission of Dr. Shruti Shankar Gaur from her inaugural book of poetry titled Four Decades, The Prose of My Life.

I realized 
Life isn’t linear
In fact, it’s spiral
The past and the present often collide

Often, I find myself at the same spot 
I had left ten years ago
Drifted by time and space 
Same situations, same dilemmas
Same questions
Now with a new name

How do I recognize them?
First, I can feel them 
My sensibilities tell me 
I have been here often 
I can’t point my finger though 
But in an instant Déjà vu happens 
I realize, there’s work to be done

It is a loop, 
I always end up in the hoop
I look back 
Trying to recall 
Last time, what did I do

Thus, I look inward
Observing my breath 
Use my heart and my head
To find the way ahead

I surrender
I seek 
I flow with the flow 
And often a small window 
Appears from above or below 

I choose 
With new vigor and sincerity 
I know, I am out of the loop
For the time being 
Till it reboots

Thus, every now and then
I find myself
In the middle of a collision 
Where the past and the present 
Remain in unison 

Hence, I realized
Wherever there is trauma 
There hides the pain 
Those are the spaces
Where work is to be done
To heal the karma
A chance to make it undone
And create an entirely new one. 

About the Author: Dr. Shruti Shankar Gaur describes herself as a nonplussed mother, a Luna to her Alpha, a passionate entrepreneur, a novice thinker, a hard-core dreamer, a scruffy poet, a true seeker, and an unusual sinner. She bares her soul in her blog: Pain & Bliss - Contact the author: https://linktr.ee/dr.shrutishankargaur